annoying step daughter

have you ever been tortured by a 10 year old girl? I have. As a matter of fact she is doing it now...she thinks that hitting me and drooling on me is fun. Not so much. I love her very much but she can be annoying. I mean nail grinding on the chalk board annoying. Right now she doesn't like that I'm writing about her. She keeps trying to delete what I am writing. She doesn't realize that it is a compliment to be in this blog. I haven't written about anyone else other than her dad. She should be happy. Oh well. On the whole she is a very good kid. She tries very hard in school and does her best to be on her best behavior when we are out in public. I realize it must be difficult for her because she has two homes. I had the advantage of having one home. I can't even imagine how hard it is to have your parents split up at age 5. I mean you know they are mom and dad but they aren't together anymore. How on earth they functioned past the divorce is beyond me. They do great though. They are challenged all the time with the differences between their parents. It must be like being caught between two rocks. They want to love both parents but how can you be loyal to both parents? It is such a hardship for a child to have to deal with. They amaze me most every day. I hope in the future they will understand the lengths to which their father and I have gone to make their lives as normal and stable as humanly possible.

Torture

So my wonderful in-laws got me the perfect gift for christmas. However, because I just had surgery I can't use it. I have to sit here and watch my entire family play it. UGH... I am happy though that they are getting the exercise they need. The wii fit plus keeps track of there weight and bmi and it has some great games to play. So the tortue will go on for another month then it will be my turn and maybe I won't share...lol

Isn't he soo handsome?

Have you ever just looked at your husband and thought, "wow he is hot"? I found myself doing that earlier today. He was in our room changing his shirt and I just sat here and drooled. He is soo handsome. We have been together for five years and married for four years. I still desire him as much today as I did when we first met. I can even remember the first time I saw him. I drove to his house at night in winter. I must have been crazy because it took me 3 hours when it should have taken only an hour and half. That being said he came out of his house in monster garage pjs. He was tall, dark and handsome. I think I fell for him right then and there.
We have been through hell and back because of his ex wife, but I would trade the worst day with him for anything. He is my sun, moon and stars. I love you honey.

another day in bed

OMG another day in bed. It is so awesome sometimes being me!!! I have to sit in here in my room with my foot up in the air because I had surgery last friday. I hope that it will be the final surgery on my left foot but I'm not going to hold my breath. This time they fused the subtalar joint in my ankle. The whole thing is now fused together so there is no movement at all. My doctor actually said that I am going to be like a peg leg now. So there should be no pain because there is no movement. Some of my pain is nerve related. Therefore I don't expect to pain free. Stopping the cracking and giving out will be a plus though.

So here I will sit waiting for the next week to go by. UGH.

The beginning

So I watched the movie Julie/Julia and got inspired. Not that I think anyone will ever read this, but it could be cathartic for me. My crazy life revolves around a husband, 3 step-children, two dogs, two cats, 8 chickens, and a less than wonderful disability. I started on this particular journey about six years ago.

Six years ago I joined the US Army. I wanted to make it my career but sadly it was cut short but an injury. This injury is what gave me my handicap. Maybe in future blogs I will go into that, not right now. When I got out of the Army I moved to Maine. This is where I met my husband. He came ready made with a family, so it was diving straight into the deep end of the pool for me.

I went from being a single soldier to a married mother in minutes. Motherhood was something that I always dreamed of but not ever really thought it would happen for me. To have it happen all at once and three at once was overwhelming to say the least. It meant that I had to do some serious catching up to do. I was programmed into drill sergeant mode and that is not good for three kids who are in between two warring parents.

So far this has definitely been the most challenging and rewarding job of my life. I know it will continue as will this blog.